Fear...

The truth is I'm scared.
I've never been so scared in my life.
It feels as though I'm not living my life.
It seems as though I'm physically present just for roll call.

I wake up and I'm amazed I'm still here
I look around me and I do not recognize anything or anyone
I walk around proud and tall, yet I do not know where I'm headed
One thing I know, you brought this fear on me

I've never been so uncertain in my life,
It scares me and breaks me down that they see it.
I've lost all respect for my reflection,
For they look at me with sadness and pity.

I wanna sink to the ground and take it,
Accept the stares and watch them see the fear in my eyes.
My feet won't let me fall so I hold on,
I hold on long enough to keep my sanity.

I dance now...
It keeps the demons at bay,
For I think if they see me smile they'll see the happiness.
As long as they don't see the fear then I'm not scared right?
Yet I am scared... I'm terrified that one day I'll forget to smile.

Never let the fear of striking out

Keep you away from the game.

-On this particular day, Your namesake