Reflections through a window

I finished this a few months back, funny thing is I don't remember writing this piece but I remember how I related to it.

I see you look at me,
but you really are only looking through me.
So transparent am I,
The sadness I bear in my heart
Is reflected by a distant glare...

The loneliness I have camouflaged
With my ever glowing smile and
Unequalled twinkle in my eye
But what you don’t know is that, the twinkle has long evaded me.
Or is it life that has stolen it from me..?

My heart I opened up to you
And my love leaked out while you pondered what it is you wanted to do.
With a sudden flare my soul erupts
And I am caught in the snare they call loneliness.

Every night I convince myself tomorrow will be better,
Pass out in bed just to evade my thoughts
Hoping to wake up with you like in my dreams,
Only to find that daylight has eluded me,
Its night again and I am all alone.

My soul cries out in anguish
For, as I have seen through your soul,
I thought you knew the sadness I bear,
Yet, so transparent I am you see through me
Trying to reach out I finally see,
It’s not your reflection I see but a memory of you before me
And as I continue looking out the window,
I start to fade as darkness falls into night and loneliness becomes my friend.

I see you look at me,
But I really am only looking through you...
So transparent you are...
As your memory fades and I start to see through the glass window...

Disclaimer: By Rotondwa Sadiki

*Turns out I finished it, a close friend wrote the 1st half...
(explains the English)